Be Yourself.

2005-12-04T00:54:00.000+08:00

PIKTYURS! *thanks Nomer! whooohoo... pwede pala bluetooth ko na!

2005-09-25T22:18:00.000+08:00

PICTURES! :) these were taken a week before my mom and grandma left. :p yup! they are not here.. and im proud to say that we're doing good!

imagination..

2005-05-08T15:21:00.000+08:00

haay... this is the most boring summer ever! they dont allow me go out... no trippin, no tennis, no friends, no movies, no popcorns... you see? everything's so boring for me. i havent watched a movie yet since my school ended. im always home! im envious of my friends who always go out... bora, puerto, baguio... la la la laaaah... im sick and tired of staying at home, turning the pc on & off, sleep, eat... blaah. i hate it. i wanna go out! well ok, at least i went out with my co-cotillioners/ dancers (whatever!) this week. haay goodthing i met them.

look what am always duin... ALWAYS! at photoshop.. im trying to experiment every tools there while im bored. :)
(well isnt this nice?a portrait of me, este the flowers)

(do i look really bored coz i did this?)

(yea..this one's cool. i think. =p)

(i wanna go to heaven. hey, i dont wanna die, ok? i wanna see it... Stairway to heaven.. hahaha)

(Im floating!!!! whoohooo! )

-0o0-

Happy Mother's Day Mommy and Mama! I love you! :)

i love being loved. :)

2005-04-26T17:43:00.000+08:00

dont you just love being loved? =) haaay.. i just looooove it so much.

i have received so many gifts this week. a lot really. either new friends or stuffs. they're really nice. i really appreciate everything! as in everything! i appreciate

how people wants to spend time with me
how they want to stand there and watch me dance though i know i really suck
how they spend their money just to see me smile
how they surprise me.. (i love surprises!)
how they are willing to sacrifice anything for me
their pasalubongs for me whenever they go out.
how they want to spend their time/load texting or calling me
their love and care for me

etc... :) i appreciate a lot of things. i even appreciate a single text of "hi/hello. or goodmorning/goodnight"

btw,im madly in love with carebears!! especially the huge one!!! but it's really really expensive. :( so.. im fine with their keychains worth 250+ each! hehe.

look what made my week/day very special!! :

1.Carebears!!! a thanks a lot bear & i dont know bear!

2.a very huggable purple- with- pink- spots- butterfly!!! ... my favorite!

3. a compilation of mymp songs from all of their albums, vst & co and some of my favorite songs!

4. ps2 cds! capcom, tennis and megaman..haha. :)

5. my favorite chocolates! ferrero & reese's white chocolate! the big ones!

6. a swarovski pink butterfly necklace! awww... i love it so much! very cute, really. =)

see how they made my week? *kilig+blush*

thanks to:

nomer (1&2)
igi(3&4)
mac(5&6)
everybody!

for always making me happy. :)

Happy Birthday Mom!

2005-04-24T13:16:00.000+08:00

Happy Happy Happy Birthday Mommy! =) I LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE YOU SO MUCH!!

Lastnight, i was at the practice for the cotillion then all of the dancers went straight to frio mixx until 11:30 pm. I still dont have a gift for my mother. So instead, i ordered carbonara, fries and clubfrio. I saw the balloons that my sister ordered at our neighbor so i claimed it that night. I planned to have a "little" surprise party for my mom. My brother bought sansirival earlier. I woke up my brother so that he could help me bring the stuffs upstairs. It's 12! we knocked. then surprise!!! "happy birthday mom!" ... =) isnt that sweet? :)

2005-04-16T18:04:00.000+08:00

My new collection:

i love tongs, flip flops & slippers. haha. they're so comfy!

-0o0-

and yes! here are my grades! finally... haha. panira filipino ko. argh. =(

btw.. im still sad until now. my bestfriend isnt texting me yet since she left. and that's really sad. =( oh well.. hope she'll text me soon.

sad.

2005-04-14T10:22:00.000+08:00

very sad.

by this time, my bestfriend is at the airport. her flight is 12nn.
time sucks. i went to her house as early as 7:30 am just to see her face, hug her and say thank you. As i entered their house, i saw her face, i almost cried but i said to myself "kym, maya na." we talked for awhile, knowing that that was the last time for us to make kwento personally really made me feel sad. i cant smile. i cant laugh.

i know that we will still see each other, but still.. it is a waaaaay different. she's my bestfriend. i just want her to stay. to be always here with me, telling kilig,funny&sad stories with me; my probs; i just need her.

8:15 am, i have to leave. i hugged her, then finally.. i cried. we walked for awhile to find a trike, then.. again, we hugged each other, i really dont want to leave, we let go of each other's hands. then finally said goodbye. i was crying the whole time until im home.

right now.. im crying. i love my bestfriend so much. i dont wanna say goodbye to her. i just wanna hug her.
and oh im talking to her right now.

we'll see each other again.

Babies

2005-04-14T10:18:00.000+08:00

A Kiss from an Angel..

my babies while sleeping. they're sooo cute!

The BEACH Baby

2005-04-14T10:15:00.000+08:00

THE

two days ago, 4-Gold sy 04-05 had a farewell party here at cavite. that was the last time that we were together. and that sucks! i love my classmates so much!
(saying bye)

(of course.. me myself and i)

(a pathetic shot of sunset)

(bwahahhahahaha... that's me...)

(pose muna!)

(and of course..my dearest classmates! a farewell talk...)

I super love highschool!

2005-04-05T12:29:00.000+08:00

otei! im done with highschool...

~ April 3, 2005.. sunday. was the very most saddest-est memory i could treasure during my highschool life (sad talaga hahaha! very, most, est-est). 7:30 was the start of our bacc. mass.9:15 was the recognition, mr.j.manela was the emcee that day, he then said to hug our fellow classmates, dude.. that was the start. we felt sad.. ok, that was just the start..

i was home by 10:30, i slept so that i could not feel the pressure i was feeling since morning. i woke up by 2:00 to fix myself. people started to text me to say congratulations, bye, thanks..etc.

we should be at school by 4:00 pm. whew! that time i could really feel the sadness. i didnt wear my toga. i was at school by 4:15pm, i then asked my adviser to put my toga. Our section was in the last line. Out of 794 students, i was 14th from the last. but our seat were in the front. madaya nga daw. hehe. we took pics, hugged everyone.. "mamimiss ko kayo!""congratz!"

we could see our teachers and other faculty members' smiles, saying congratulations while we were marching towards the gym. I waited for 2 1/2 looooong hours for my name to be called. "This is it!haaay.."

8:00.. ok. that was the saddest part. while we were singing our alma mater, only our section, 4-Gold started to cry, to hug everyone, group hug pa. :) 4 looong yrs were really enough for us to know each other.

The tribbongGINTO went to the stage.. cried, laughed, hugged each other, said congratulations, i will miss you, thank you, i love you... took pics. i didnt bring cam because my mom wasnt there, instead i used kimie, my fone. but damn almost all pics are blurry. i dunno why.. :(

my friends.. :) pangit ko!!

best shot though blurry.. they were crying and hugging each other.

i with mommy len.

bored..

while waiting for our turn.

before it started.

:)
i officially graduated.. :)
The best ang highschool..<3
*im sucha loser.. i didnt cry that much, i just did when my adviser hugged me and said"mamimiss ko kayo, kayo kasi yung the best".. and while we were singing our dear alma mater song..*
tribo i love you... =)

isa, dalawa, tatlo, apat

2005-04-02T15:53:00.000+08:00

my higschool days...that i wont forget

FRESHMAN.

i really wont forget my first day in school, that was when i first met my crush. he asked my number.. and guess what?! until now, he's still courting me. it's been 3 looong yrs.but sorry to say, i dont like him anymore. i told that to him na. he said, he still loves me.
my bestfriend-slash-seatmate chrisma. she's the oldest in our class and im the youngest. she likes rock, i hate rock. she's a punk, im not. she loves battle realms, i hate br. im very maarte, she's not. im kikay, she's not. haha. i dont know how we clicked. basta lang, we're bestfriends! and im happy. :) oh she's my classmate until tommorow..why til tom? grad ko tom.
haha i was a choir member! i joined there. blaaah.. walang ginawa kundi kumanta ng kumanta. syempre. i didnt enjoy 1st & 2nd yr because of choir. our conductor is very strict. no boys. no life. haha.
6:20 to 1:40 ... very short class when i was a freshman.

SOPHOMORE..

my first true love. haha. :)
my first realy enemy, a teacher- penguin and my seatmate!
i was the sopho muse, we had a parade, i was wearing ym cousin's gown worth 50 000+ from rajo laurel i think. hehe. very cute. I looked like a mermaid.
i started to build friends.
i realized that sometimes boys are better friends than girls.
i had a huge crush, he was the mr.iisg, a 4th yr student that time, a very cute guy. (it was vacation when we started to talk, then he courted me afterwards. ;))

JUNIOR...

been with my first true love. bwahahahahaha. a bad memory though. :p
my real friends! :)
chris the punk, nowee the girl-a-loo, rence aka lolo, merlo vecklah, aireen the lover, jah the kikay, ivy pakipot, ge the cat, lon the artist.
i started to be maloko..
cheating arrangement
i joined tennis, won 1st & 3rd place-milo little olympics.

SENIOR....

the kensekai: kenogami. -chris the punk, nowee the girl-a-loo, rence aka lolo, merlo vecklah, aireen the lover, jah the kikay, ivy pakipot, ge the cat, lon the artist.
another bestfriends! :1)ellis the math genius!i really wanna thank PHYSICS! we started to be close because of physics, he's a genius. haha. really. :) he taught me everything in physics. if it wasnt because of him, i wouldnt be this good. ;) thanks eli! 2)Ira my breadstix! ira is really my bestfriend. she's always there for me whenever i need someone to talk to. i helped her to adjust because she was a transferee. (sh'll be leaving on april 14 im so sad. :( )
super kalokohanS
my teachers!
my sisters of course!
you know? crushes..boys...
and of course, the happiest yet the saddest point of my highschool life, Graduation Day! i really won't forget it. :)

yes. im ready.

2005-04-02T13:46:00.000+08:00

haaaay/high!school life?

haaaay talaga., high! :)

tomorrow is my Graduation Day! c'mon greet me! congratulate me! haha. :)

COLLEGE?new life, new friends, new environment, new boys(haha).. haay.. im excited yet scared.

i have no idea if im gonna have lots of friends, real friends to be exact like my highschool friends.. yung "walang iwanaN!"
TOXIC- ive been hearing that word thousand times from college students who are taking up nursing. why toxic?!
traffic.. commute.. transpo... - i have no idea how to get to my soon-to-be-school. oh i know how but im not that familiar esp going home. im scared, hehe. i learned to commute when i was in highschool, a tricycle. yes! i dont know how to ride on a jeep or bus before. puj- i learned how to ride when i was in 3rd yr, you know.. medyo gala na. bus-just recently and im freakin scared when im by myself. and of course, the terrible traffic! i have to face the truth.. whoohooo... :( i wish im rich! car+driver.. yes! i need that. :)
am i really sure? BS nursing for me? kym.. cmon, do you really want to take up nursing?*** yes. im not really that decided yet. but schools are now closed for applicants. well i dont wanna study at dlsu-d. i dunno if nursing is really for me. my dad wants me to take up nursing, so as the other people around me. it's my dream to have a high salary, buy my own ranch type of house, a dodge ram or an escalade of my own, to have my own proud-happy family, & of course to be rich. haha.:)
polsci or lmg is the course that i really want. but im really thinking of my future esp my future family.
boys. haha. new boys!

am i really ready for college?!

but before that.. am i really ready to leave my highschool life? my friends?crushes?teachers?subjectS? people are right, highschool is the best. :)

another life to take, another journey to make.

im ready.

Kandadong hindi Mabuksan

2005-04-02T13:23:00.000+08:00

Nang ika'y dumating
Pulang kwarto'y iyong binuksan
Ika'y namangha, natulala at natuwa
Inangkin nang di ko namamalayan

Hiningi mo ang susi
Binigay ko ng walang bahala
Waring sayong sayo na
Nang walang pagaalinlangan

Ako'y hindi nagtanong kung bakit
Ika'y aking tinanggap nalang bigla
Ni hindi alam kung ano gagawin
Basta't sayo nalamang bigla

Ako'y namangha
Nakita ka lagi mula sa bintana
Kahit na alam na wala ka
Loob nito'y puro ikaw

Ngunit habang tumatagal
Ang pula'y humuhulas
Waring napabayaan
Ngunit ikaw pa rin ang nakikita

Ako ngayo'y labis na nagalala
Pagka't ito'y aking inalagaan
Nais buksan na
Ngunit wala sa akin ang daan

Naala na nasayo lamang
Ang susing aking ibinigay
Ngunit ika'y naglaho
Nang hindi ko namalayan

Dumating ka ng di ko alam
Naglaho ka ng walang pakiramdam
Ngayo'y nagaalala
Kailan kaya matatangal ang IKAW

Ikaw na lagi kong nakikita
Tuwing sumisilay
Tuwing nagaalala
Tuwing masaya

Hindi ko alam kung paano bubuksan
Ang kandado na iyong sinarhan
Tuwinang humihiling na ika'y dumating
Dala ang susi na aking hinahagkan

Habang ang pula ay naririyan pa
Alam ko na may pagasa
Dumating kana
Para mabuksan na

Upang bigyang pagkakataon
Pagkakataon na maging masaya
Pagkakataon na maging pula
At pagkakataon naman para sa iba

*haha. :) those words were running in my mind since wednesday.

lazy me.

2005-04-01T21:21:00.000+08:00

haay.. at last! im back. :)

ive been very lazy these past few days. really. im just either sleeping, eating or watching. yes! who wouldnt gain weight whit what i did? man.. now im kinda frustrated cuz it's summer! im planning to buy bathing suit pa naman for bora. tsk.

anyways.. look what ive been up to these past days.

yes! my mom and my lil pilya sis are already home. :) everything changed since they came. riot na ulit dito sa house. people are now shouting, crying, laughing, piggin out again just like what we were doing before! well many things changed since they came. got diff news. bad & good news.. k, i'll start with bad and then with the good one(PT-positive thought):

A) my dad is gone. no one knows where he is, how he is, what's his life now without us, what's new with him? i know that his mother and sibs know where he is but they're keeping him from us, his family. i may not look that affected, but i am. well.. not that affected, i mean.. unlike the other adolescents who are also struggling with the same probie. im being an optimist now. or am trying to be. a)P.T- well at least now my mom can change her surname and she's free to do anything she wants. (angel with my dad)

B) my mom now has a bf/fiance? huh. it's ok naman but she didnt ask me if it's ok with me. b) P.T- we'll be an american citizen soon if the marriage happens.

C) we have a new computer and phone addict. my mother! we now have a new phone line. i now have a "kaagaw" in my pc. :( c)new phone line.

2. my favorite cousin came back home! after 10 loong yrs.. :) just for two weeks though. she didnt enjoy her stay that much coz she's with oldies. she intoduced me to her cousin, BAROK/MANUEL. he's sooo cute. haha. (that's me with ate kim)

3. we went to island cove. wala lang. haha.

4. it was our last day of grad prac yesterday. :) mixed emotions. im now feeling sad because i will surely miss my classmates. im happy because im very proud of myself.

5. i slept, ate and watched.

4 days nalang. :)

2005-03-20T22:26:00.000+08:00

im so excited! my sister and my mom will be back on thurs! whooohooo....

my kulit sister will be mine again
an i-pod for me!!! sa wakas!
balikbayan boxes!
pasalubongs! :p
chockies!
the smell of balikbayan boxes...wheee
may nanay na ulit ako!!!!
globe broadband. hehe.

excited. bwahaha. but seriously, i wanna kiss and hug my lil sister na! :) 4 days nalang. :p

-0O0-

lastnight, i accompanied my cousin to his friend's debut at new world. it was unplanned, he just asked me the night before! then tadeng! we went together. :) we should wear cocktail dress / coat. "pls. dont wear black" what the? i have lots of black cocktail dress! now what?! i went to rob imus, ok asa pa ko na may maganda dun... buuut... there's this "surplus" store. hehe. i saw this purple cute semi formal dress, express. :) P450- 25% i think. great great deal. :)

i looked fine. really. :) i know super cheap nun, but as what they say, "nasa nagdadala lang yan!" haha.

oh btw, we ordered a frap at new world... they actually dont have one, but they can make one. :p at first, "dude, baka di masarap yan, di nila alam yung frap... " waiter:"ano po yun? yun po pa yung ibblend yung ice? pwede po naming gawin yun." us:"sige bahala na. hehe."

omg.. it's soooo gooood! really. :) you can really feel the "coffee", then you could add some honey by yourself. :) try it. kahit feeling ko kami yung unang customer na nagorder nun. hehe.

a birthday greeting.. :)

2005-03-14T23:48:00.000+08:00

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY NIEL!!! :)

they love me. ;)

2005-03-13T23:21:00.000+08:00

a biiiiiiiiiiiiiiig ferrero for me!! whooohooo!! :) igi gave this to me. isnt he sweet? haha

i went to atc yesterday with mac and my 2 other former classmates. we pigged out to death! he treated us at cpk,timezone and starbucks, take note.. we had to finish that venti?! :)

and oh..at last... my mom already bought me an ipod.. whehhhe..

there's one thing i realized: i look better after i woke up. :)

=)

2005-03-11T11:41:00.000+08:00

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY ATE BIANCA!!!!

-o0o-

until now.. im still wonderin.. why am i really in love with this guy? damn. he's a way different from other guys. but... i know that my other boys love me. he dont even love me? heck.

-o0o-

this is jade. my new "almost" bestpal. :) here's a secret.. we're with our past yesterday. it's his birthday, we didnt spend even a single centavo. whoohoo.. that's our main purpose. we dont even want him to be with us. funny huh? we're like "saya mo ha.dala-dalawa. swerte mo libre mo kami." i never thought of doin that! haha. but it was really fun. :p we watched cursed, golly ang corny! ate my favorite cheese popcorn! then dinner at kenny rogers, 1 whole chicken, 9 cups of rice, pitcher of iced tea, 4 muffins.. burp! hey.. we didnt finish that! we took a studio pic, and he's in the middle... saya talaga ng birthday niya! Who wouldnt we happy? Even I, if I would be with my two beloved boys hehe :D that was one of the best gala ever. haha. with or without him. jade's great! :) lubshuu sis!

2005-03-09T23:02:00.000+08:00

who wouldnt miss this very cute,smart and intelligent 3 yr old girl? maaan.. i miss my baby.. :(

nowadays, i feel so lucky with such marked down stuffs! it was my bestfriends birthday yesterday.. we went to rob imus to buy something at natl bookstore for her proj. then we went straight to olypic vill, our fav store! ok because we're the sporty ones. otei? i saw this la gear handbag which is on sale, from 800 to 400. -50%.. we' like that bag since we first saw it..then i said to my best "tara tingnan natin dun,baka may sale sa kickers".. then amazingly.. i saw these same kickers bags which we've been wanting since ages! ive been waiting for it to be on sale. "200.. ano kaya to? price o prod no?" then my friend said "oh my god, kym! pag 200 nalang yan bibilihin ko talaga yan.. tanong mo dali!" i hurriedly asked the saleslady, "miss ano tong 200?price o no?" ... "mam price po ng bag."

whoa!!!! we're jumping like crazy.. hehe. i asked my best if it would be ok if ill buy that for her.. gift ko na! she agreed! :) yey! napamura ako. haha. but ooopss... i dont have money with me. she paid it first then i went to an atm to widthraw(?) and then i gave back her money.

see???? im really feeling lucky.. :P

2 days ago my grandma and i went to rob (again) to buy some grocery stuffs. then i saw these cooked hams,chicken hams and centennial hams which were on sale. cooked ham P250 per kl.. there's this one cooked ham that has a P175 price on it. "ma! look at this. ang mura, bakti ganon?" oh owkie... :) the salesman put chix ham instead of cooked ham.. wasnt my fault.. :p then we bought it. a 1.9 kilos of cooked ham for only P175. haha. :)

2005-03-05T18:26:00.000+08:00

Haaay.. this day is the most tiring day ever! havent taken enough sleep since last week. exams..exams.. whew! i still cant believe that we're almost done with highschool.. :)

i have a new friend named JADE.. who is she? she's the past of my past. haha. gets? she's so nice though. we're talking like crazy unitl 2am. we talked about our past... then tadeng! our past is really a great liar! :p lumbas lahat ng baho niya. haha.

woke up at 630 am to practice the CAT-1 graduation. then went straight to tennis court. played til 2pm. see? aint that tiring! i need a rest!! then i went to pur shop to paint for my proj. i painted 16 pcs cardboard to make it as a thank you card, pahabol values namin.

anyways.. now im really missing my lil sister, angel. she's so cute. haaay...

this is the BOOB TUBE REMOTE! my mom and i bought it at US. 'ts so funny.

another funny thing... that's me.. it was my birthday, i was crying the whole night. geees.. :)

lastly... another pahabol bear. that's hmmm... purpineelow. purple pink green and yellow. corny ko ah. Rainbow nalang. :)

takecare guys.. gotta rest now. mwah!

relax!relax!relax!

2005-03-04T16:44:00.000+08:00

Tapos na finals ko.. whooohoo.. im so happy! im done with my highschool journey. another one's waiting for me! im ready.Ü3 days of reading,memorizing,not sleeping!! I just love this feeling.. :) we were shouting after our last exam. awww.. i will miss everyone.

anyways, i heard my dad's voice 2 days ago.. just a "hello?" and the i put down the phone. i just dont ahve the guts to talk to him. i just want to know if he'll answer my call. just got his NEW number from my mom's spies. hehe. now... i wanna talk to him, but im still scared. i just cant do it. see? im such a stupid person. i just need to get our full consent of authority blaaah blaah for us to be able to go abroad without his permission.. haaay.. i need that.

I terribly miss my baby angel. =(

no.. where am i goin? hmm.. i need to relax.. :)

check out LEE-LEE. baho. haha. CUDLEE. pahabol gift from mac/leemark.

Today... am officially 15!!! Ü

2005-02-27T21:30:00.000+08:00

yes.. it is my birthday today.. :)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!

i still accept gifts este greetings..haha. =)

anyways.. i was crying lastnight because my bestfriend told me that she cant go with us(ira and I) because she is grounded... i was then excited..then it turned out to be a disappointment. i was really really down lastnight knowing that no one could share my birthday celebration with me, well yea except for ira.

at 12mn, i was still sad. uh mixed emotions actually. i am glad to know that many people love me! they called me up, texted.. blaaah.. until 3 am. uh... niel was the first greeter, whow.. so hows that huh? i didnt expect that. =) nuff said about him. my mom called me up...my sister was singing the whole time "happy birthday ate! happy birthday ate!" awww i miss her so much na...

my dad didnt greet me. again. okei. i am not expecting. haha. he changed his number.

i slept at around 3:30am. then my grandma woke me up at 830 asking if we wil lgo to church at 930. then i said yes, she said " kym, may flowers ka." i said " oh yea? wala naman e.".... "meron nga." ..... "wala naman e.".... "ano itatapon ko na to?".... "sige.".. then she showed me my favorite flower in the whole wide world! gerbera daisies! awwwwwwwwwww....... =) that started my day. it is my birthday today, i said to myself.

i received so many text messages.. =) i called up my bestfriend, izzay asking if her dad allows her na to go out to celebrate with me.ahhhh! syhe said "YES!" yahoo... =)

we went to church... then to atc with my two bestfriends ira and izzay... took a studio pic...and then ate at TGIF. whooowooo... it was really funny there, esp while the waiters were singing,. and yea i dont have any cake. they gave a scoop of ice cream with whipped cream on it and of course a candle! i made a wish.... :)

then we played at timezone. hehe. we tried that percussion drum thingy and dance rev... it was fuuuun... =) though we do not know how to play, we tried... =) oh i dont have any potentials for that percussion, but i do have at dance dance... =)

went to starbucks... then went home by 7pm.
that was fun. though people didnt give me gifts.hmmmp! kiddin! i enjoyed.

and oh...my close classmates,the kensekai watched constantine last friday, i treated them. =) it was ok.

**im still hoping for my dad's call.. **

2005-02-19T16:38:00.000+08:00

haaay..at last! i survived!!!

****how would you react when you deserved a reward and was denied it?***

---->that happened to me!!!! agrh. i almost cried.

two days before my prom, my left eye got irritated.. my gosh! i put an eye ointment,drops every hour,took antibiotics.

got a big bruise from nowhere... ????!

our designer needed to fix my gown because it wasnt fit yet. got my gown 1 hr before the program.

im almost late for the program. im in a hurry,.. emcee kasi ulit.

i still dont have a make up artist the day before.

my make up artist was late.

i had an interview at manila doctors college of nursing that morning.. puyat ako! woke up at 5:30. imagine that??! oh i passed. =) got home by 11.

i was supposed have a studio pic at great imaga (dahil yun lang maayos!) at sm. but it was already 5 pm.

instead i went to rob imus... at kameraworld! i gee!!! they do not know how to do such stuffs! no posings..blaaah!

i went to Jay-ann's photoshop.. they were nice. pero pangit don!!!

got irritated with everyone!!!!

didnt practice... there's this french word.. i was like "what??!! son et lieumer... whatever???!!!"

i was ms. valentine---->prom queen...

but... instead the "stars of the night" were the ones who were in the middle-throne with flowers!---> nagkamali daw yung mga teachers! nakakahiya naman daw kung sasabihin sa stars of the night.

asar to death ako!!!

"bakit po walang prom king & queen", i asked the day before sa teacher. and he was like "mr & ms valentine yun".. ow owkie

soooo.... i saw the results, because i was the emcee remember?.. saw my name. ok fine fine.. i did expect.. kasi naman nagtanong ako the day before.

bakit sila yung nasa middle and center of attraction???!!! wtf?

sakit ng paa ko...=(

untog ako because of my suitor who was dancing like crazy! grrr.

oh.. the teachers thought that my cam was the school's cam.. dont you just hate it? anuhin ko pics nila?!argh.

no mobile pics for me because i was really in a hurry... didnt bring my fone.

see???! i almost cried... i was never happy nor excited talaga. daming troubles and kapalpakans... haaay... oh well.. at least im still the ms. valentine, the prom queen..though they didnt know. darn. palpak!!!!

yup yup... that's my bruise... from nowhere.

ms valentine...with 1 rose.... its supposedly a buoquet!!!

my gown after the prom... i find it very cute...watcha think? i look like a plant.. green apple and pink..with veins and flower petals and butterflies in my hair! =)

**** oh but i really did enjoy my prom... kahit puro troubles. i danced with 22 boys i think! slow dance ha... =) my first dance was the mr. valentine, he's nice though..then robert my suitor haha that was funny! he didnt know how to dance, then he kept holding my hands.. hehe. and so on... my last dance was dennis, my suitor for 3 yrs. haha.. =)

Flowers?

2005-02-17T18:58:00.000+08:00

1 dozen of roses for me... hehe. yahoo!!! mac, my suitor gave this to me.. and it was delivered.. belated happy hearts day daw! =) it was my first time to received such bouquet.. thanks mac! it was such a relief. im pretty tired today! Tom will be our prom day... pictures will be uploaded soon... mwah. oh i will be having an interview tom at madocs.. haaaay...

happy valentine's day!!!

2005-02-14T21:54:00.000+08:00

Happy Heart's day!!!

hmmm..im wonderin.. uh.. why everyone's so nice to me this day? tsk tsk.. =)
im so proud to be single... yup yup! i could date anyone i like, boys are giving me stuffs.. blaaah.. nuthing.. hehe. non sense..

oh well. A lot of people greeted me today. i slept late because of them, ei di ako nagrereklamo ha. thank you guys.. :)

guy1 gave me 3flowers w/ gift... guy2 gave me a ferrero, the heart-shaped one.. guy3 asked me out, then we ate.. guy4-guy5&guy6 greeted me. hehe. hmmmm...

Ate niñ?--Happy Birthday Ate russ!

2005-02-13T14:10:00.000+08:00

I went to Glorietta with my friend, kuya Charles last friday because we were both bored. He saw this girl named Fea... i was like "Ate nin?oh my... kamukha niya ate ko!"

What can you say??

_0o0_

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ATE RUSS!!!!

Thanks Charles!

2005-02-08T21:07:00.000+08:00

Im too good to have these 4 cups of... Reese's White Chocolate!!! whehheee.. :) ive been craving for these!thanks Kuya Charles! i looove my kuya charles for giving these to me. i return, i tried to fix his blog. hehe. mwah mwah! thanks Charles!

REESE'S White Chocolate Rules... haha. :p sucha white choco freak.

2005-02-06T13:08:00.000+08:00

i have learned:

to be strong
that you shouldnt be a pessimist. be an optimist.
that lies are really really strong. but truth still conquers.
that even your most trustworthy person you know or should trust could tell a lie and hurt you the most.
that you shouldnt give your "love" to someone who couldnt love you back.
that shit really happens. :p
that moms will really fight for their kids.
to let go and move on.
to trust myself
to fight
to learn from my mistakes and other people's mistakes as well.
that an argument couldnt be solved if you wont talk
that bestfriends will always try their best to help you
that sometimes you should not seek for other people's help. help yourself.
that learning is important. wether it's from a bad situation or good. it will help you.
that pretending that youre happy can make you feel worse.
that sometimes you wanna cry, you just cant. but still you will try to find somethin that could make you cry.
that crying can ease pain and make you feel better
that you're real smile cant be there when you are sad.
that pretending is a no no.
that problems are thereseeking for you... solutions are also there trying to catch the problems.

that are the things i have learned since my life started to be down. =p eventually,im learning from it.

pink monks

2005-02-05T23:37:00.000+08:00

i hate those pink monkeys up there! they shouldnt be like that! argh. it should be like falling monkeys... it was ok when i tried to preview it. grrrr.. can you see my monkeys falling??

pamperin myself!

2005-02-04T18:18:00.000+08:00

ive been so depressed this week... ive been crying.. blaaah.you could see my eyes naman. =) but i guess i have to start something new.. when we, girls are depressed, we usually pamper ourselves..so tadeng!!!! i had a haircut. and pigged out by myself at frio. hehe. im quite satisfied with what i did today. though i look bad in this pic because of my eyes, uhhh... whatever.

i tried putting tea bags and a very cold eye mask. but nothing changed! no grad pics for me because i feel so ugly this week! haaay.. :p... im okei..okei...okei.

hatred.

2005-02-02T18:39:00.000+08:00

things are getting worse everyday. i hate this feeling. i hate cryin. i hate thinking.

i hate what im feeling right now. :(

im trying to be ok. im pretending to be ok. but things arent ok. i cant do it.

lies.. lies.. lies... i hate lies.

geeees... that's why i dont want to be on this thing. i only write when bad things happen.

sucha badblogger.

N.I.E.L

2005-01-30T13:17:00.000+08:00

Nang ika'y makita
Puso koy nagalala
Sumambit bigla
Ang sabi'y ikaw nga

Ika'y nakilala
Napamahal nalang bigla
Puso ko'y natuwa
Ngunit ikaw'y natawa

Eto na nga ba ang aking iniiwasan
Puso'y waring pinagpapawisan
Puso'y natatakot
Baka muling malagot

Lumisan ka na
O bakit pa nga ba
Puso'y muling nagkamali
Akala'y tiyak, yun pala'y hindi.

=)

2005-01-29T18:31:00.000+08:00

ang simula at ang pagtatapos

2005-01-29T18:08:00.000+08:00

bagong araw
bagong bukas
bagong liwanag
bagong dilim
bagong simula
bagong wakas

lahat ay nagbabago
di mo alam kung kailan
nakakagulat
nakakahindak
matatawa ka
maiiyak

yan ang simula
yan ang katapusan
lahat ay magsisimula
lahat ay magtatapos

tanong mo kung kailan
walang may alam
pwedeng ngayon
mamaya
o bukas

kayat ika'y maghanda
maaring ngayo'y masaya
maaring bukas'y malungkot
ngayo'y simula
bukas ay tapos

huwag kang mabibigla
pagka't yan ang buhay
lahat ay may simula
at sadyang matatapos.

bestfriend ko.

2005-01-29T15:39:00.000+08:00

ang kaibigan minamahal

andyan ka kapag kailangan ka

handa kang masaktan

handa kang makinig

handa kang magbago

yan ang ginawa ko

sabi mo kaibigan mo din ako

minahal mo

inalagaan mo

pinakinggan mo

ang tunay na kaibigan

di nangiiwan

kahit iniwan ka ng lahat

andyan pa din si kaibigan

nagmamalasakit sayo

may makita man siyang bagong tao

kahit na mas matino sayo

sasabihin,

ikaw pa din bestfriend ko

may pangako na binitiwan

sabi walang iwanan

masaya hindi ba

ngunit may dumating na bago

sabi mo pareho kaming mahal mo

payag ako

ako bestfriend mo, sabi ko

ngunit hindi naging madali

mas pinapahalagahan mo siya

naiingit ako

asan na bestfriend ko

sabi mo boyfriend mo siya

ako bestfriend mo

sabi ko ah okey

iba ang pagpapahalaga mo samin

pinilit kong intindihin ka

ngunit nasasaktan na ko

wala ka ng oras bestfriend

inagaw ka na niya sakin

sabi ko sayo nagtatampo nako

yung bestfriend ko

inaagaw ng boyfriend niya

sabi mo hindi totoo

bestfriend mo pa din ako

boyfriend mo siya

kulit ko

tanong mo,

hindi mo ba naiintindihan?

sabi ko,

naiintindihan ko

mas mahalaga na siya sayo

ako iniwan mo

ngunit okey lang sabi ko

magkakaboyfriend din ako

pero sa pagkakataon na yun

pangako di ako gagaya sayo

ikaw pa din bestfriend ko

papahalagahan ko

mamahalin ko

hindi ko ipagpapalit

kahit na kanino

kahit ilang panibagong friend

ikaw lang bestfriend ko

pero nagsasawa na ko

mahal kita bestfriend

gusto ko ding maramdaman yun

gusto ko ding mapatunayan mo

na ako pa din bestfriend mo

di mo na ko pinahalagahan

di naman ako bato ha

tao ako

kaibigan mo

nasasaktan

akala ko'y madali

bagkus ako'y mali

paano na ba

paalam na nga ba

alam kong mali

ngunit akoy hindi nagkamali

bestfriend kita

pero sabi ko tama na

paalam bestfriend

kita tayo ulit

nandito lang naman ako

nagsasawa nga

ngunit nagaantay pa din sayo

bestfriend nga diba.

ala movie scene..

2005-01-29T14:57:00.000+08:00

at last... my baby sister already saw my dad...
here's how..

at first my dad doesnt want to see my sister. yes ayaw niya. my mom and sister went to san francisco 2 days ago. my sister called up my dad and she said
"daddy bakit mo inaaway mommy ko?say sorry ka sakanya."
then my dad rushed to get there... my dad was already there after 5 mins.
and here's the ala movie scene:

when my dad opened the door, he saw my little sister standing... my dad cried then knelt to hug my little sister, my sister also hugged her long lost daddy, she dont even know what my dad looks like. imagine... they were just talking for 3 yrs. the last time he saw my sister was when she was only 1 month of age. baby pa talaga.

but my dad stayed for only 10 mins. because that bitch kept calling him. he asked my mom if he could bring my sister out today,she agreed. but my mom said that he didnt come. my innocent sister was really excited. she was waiting for my dad. but my dad didnt come nor call. wtf??!

i just hate him for being like that.

my own stupidity.

2005-01-28T17:35:00.000+08:00

i feel stupid. everyone's making me feel stupid.

tao sa buhay ko.

2005-01-28T17:27:00.000+08:00

ang tao sa buhay .. nadating. masaya ka pag andyan siya.
ang tao sa buhay .. naalis. malulungkot ka pag umalis siya.

ngunit ang tao sa buhay ko.. dumating man o umalis. ako nakapirmi.

buhay ng tao.

2005-01-28T17:09:00.000+08:00

ang buhay ng tao ay parang isang laro ng mga bata, sa una masaya, takbo dito takbo doon. hagalpakan sa tawa. habulan ng habulan. okey lang sa una kung may nananalo o may natatalo, ngunit kung paulit ulit na lang siya ang natatalo, napipikon na si talo paunti unti, ayawan na kumbaga. syempre eto naman si panalo ng paulit ulit, naghahamon pa ng isa sasabihan ka ng duwag. hanggang sa mauwi na sa awayan at iyakan. sumbungan dito sumbungan doon. galit sa isat isa. ngunit kinabukasan naman ay kakatok ulit si kalaro, sabay sabi tara laro ulit tayo.

ang buhay ng tao ay parang isang kotse, sarap sakyan pag bago, mabango, lagi mong lilinisin, aalagaan mo ng todo, di mo ipapahiram sa iba. todo bili ng pampaganda. ngunit habang nagtatagal ay nagsasawa kana, marami ng bago, madumi na. tapos sira sira pa ang makina. pagkatapos mong alagaan ng ilang taon,hahayaan mo nalang. tapos pagbebenta mo, pag dating ng bibili, magbaback out ka,bakit? nakakapanghinayang kasi yung nagastos mo noon, naisip mo. pagandahin ko nalang ulit. collector's item na pagnagtagal tagal, di mo namalayan pinakamahal na kotse na pala ito.

ang buhay ng tao parang isang gelpen na halagang P30. ganda gamitin sa una, madaming tinta, nakakatuwang isulat. ngunit dahil sa madami kang isinusulat, malamang ay nauubos ito, eto ka na naiinis, di mo na ulit ginamit kasi malabo na ang sulat. sasabihin mo na bibili ka nalang ng ibang klase, yung mas mura, panda ballpen nalang para di sayang pag naubos. punta ka ulit sa bookstore, pabili ka na sana ulit ngunit nakita mo si refill ng gelpen sa halagang P20. sabay sabi ah refill na nga lang ulit para maganda, gelpen pa.

2005-01-23T11:25:00.000+08:00

my love story's over. yes. you read it right. :( no more niel. lastnight was the worst feeling ever. goodthing i have this guy friend to cry on til 2am. thanks my dear.

ive been playing this song yesterday... guess i am right.

I can still remember yesterday
We were so in love in a special way
And knowing that you loved me
Made me feel oh so right
But now I feel lost, don't know what to do
Each and every day I think of you
Holdin' back the tears,
I'm trying with all my might

Because you've gone and left me standing
All alone
And I know I've got to face tomorrow
On my own....But baby....

Before I let you go
I want to say I love you
I hope that you're listenin
''Coz it's true,baby
You'll be forever in my heart
And I know that no one else will do, yeah
So before I let you go
I want to say it.....I love you

I wish that it could be just like before
I know I could've given you so much more
Even though you know I'd given you all my love
I miss your smile, I miss your kiss
Each and every day I reminisce
'Coz baby it's youThat I'm always dreaming of...

Letting love go is never easy
But I love you so
That's why I set you free
And I know
Someday
Somehow
I'll find a way To leave it all behind me
Guess it wasn't meant to be But baby.........

So before I let you go I want to say.......it I love you .

-----

pls.allow me to say this..this will be the last.i promise.
i love you niel.

today will be a new beginning.

----->corny ko.<-----

blaaahs..

2005-01-21T19:43:00.000+08:00

geees... i have nothing to say...why oh why??

yesterday was cooool.. :) our school had this battle of the band. i didnt know that my schoolmates can play that good. i didnt do anything productive yesterday.. :D my mom texted me lastnight. she said that she bought me a looot na. and she's still asking for more.. whooohoo..

-0o0-
today... hmmm... we had this parade called "pasa masid".. i walked to death in our field..im wearing this ala stewardess attire. yun lang..

oh i was in our shop this morning, this girl with her mom came to ask something about our gowns.. i talked to this girl for awhile.. she's from st.francis, i know someone from that school..my elementary crush... then i asked "do you know dakis? john david dakis?" (with a biiig smile on my face)..she replied "boyfriend ko yun". i was like "oh..oh yea?ah kasi schoolmate ko yun sa lamc." my gawd... hehe. im so ashamed. but that was sooo funny..

-0o0-
anyways... im done with niel.. i think. oh no. im still thinking if i should let my feelings go.
but im still pretty sure that i love him. pero if ever he'll court me(IF EVER),i dont think it'll work. nothing will happen. so...should i let him go?or should i still wait?
clueless.

-0o0-
oh onething more. i terribly hate my dad. i know. i should not say this. you cant blame me. Ü

Smile..

2005-01-20T09:09:00.000+08:00

this song always plays when im sad. really. like last sunday,i was really sad then it played like 3 times. ok ok ok... SMILE kym. =)

Smile

Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by
If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll see the sun come shining through for you

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

glad to be ok =)

2005-01-19T10:13:00.000+08:00

hellowie people... =) im fine! i cant believe this... hehe.

they left 2 days ago. i wasnt able to kiss and say goodbye to my sister. i didnt go out pretending that i was asleep. awww... bad ate.

i just miss my noisy sister when im home. no one's makin me kulit... =) oh well... i still have another kulit sister here naman.

takecare people. Ü

nothing.really.

2005-01-16T16:16:00.000+08:00

im trying to handle my emotions.... well well well... it's pretty hard!!! im just proud to say that i havent cried yet. :) maybe tomorrow. they will be leaving at 5:30 am, 7am is their flight. i think. they will come back on...i dont know! that sucks.

haaaay... hope i could still handle this until tom. :) im trying to smile,see? haaaaay... whatever. bayooou!

MY BESHIE BREADSTIX and I

2005-01-15T22:45:00.000+08:00

breadstix! thank you so much for being there for me esp right now. sorry if im actin a bit crazy... you're crazy either! :D anyways, thank you for being my bestfriend. i never thought of having you. you'll always be my breadstix and ill always be your cheesestix... we'll always be the stix.. forever. you'll always be my bestfriend. i will always be here for you.

i know...you will be leaving 2 months from now.. but dont worry breadstix, we could still do our crazy stuffs again...someday. i promise. we'll stay in the same house/apt,we'll leave our future husbands together so that we could shop together!want to sawa! haha. we'll watch more horror movies... with matching butter popcorn (hindi na cheese,dein available sa US!)... shop at aero and ae. and a lot more!!!

thank you for being my sis,my friend,my beshie and my breadstix... i love yah so much beshie breadstix! :D

THE STIX...again.:D

breadstix

cheesestix

another result of our craziness....

the stix

2005-01-15T22:04:00.000+08:00

2 days to go... haaay...can't take it anymore. im really really feeling sad. honestly, i hate this feeling..i hate what im duin... Thank God i have my beshie ira. if she arent here...my gawd.

my beshie besh breadstix is my only source of happiness..ok as of last week. yesterday. today. tomorrow. until next week. until whenever... she really is a friend... a BESTFRIEND to be exact.

why breadstick? i dunno.. it's just a result of our craziness. we ate at frio mixx last thurs because we were both bored. we started piggin out since that day. we stayed there for about 2 hrs, ate a lot...took a lot of pics... she just started calling me cheesestix out of nowhere. then i started calling her watermelon coz that's what i saw, then i changed it into fruitcake...

pigged out...we also dont know what could our purpose be with that 1 pc of fries. :D

crazy beshies....

we went to my house to watch serendipity .. man... we were so funny that night..we started rolling around, taking a lot of pics AGAIN, had a little pillow fight...blaaah blaaah. i really had fun! at last!

we were lying around..taking pics!!! we took uh... about 50+ pics i think.

breadstix went home at around 11 pm.. she's so cool. :D i love my besshie sooo much. ok... before i go to sleep i texted her to say thank you for being there for me and stuffs.... then "BREADSTIX" just came to my mind.. so now... we are THE STIX!!! ok although we dont look like one.. :p you dont get it?me either.

again... we are just CRAZY.. :)

the next day... we didnt attend our class... :) we didnt cut. it is our school's foundation day next week. we dont have class. :)
our craziness are still alive. :) we watched ocean's twelve.. fine fine.. it was a good movie really. but..but..we didnt understand the movie that much. we were not able to watch ocean's eleven.wait... uh should i watch it????? i dont know!...we just wanna eat our favorite cheese popcorn. :) yummy!

haaaay.... buti nalang may bestfriend ako...

got home by 6..then we took pics again using our mobiles..

THE STIX!

cheesetix and breadstix

i just need my beshie around everyday... :)

sad...

2005-01-11T17:20:00.000+08:00

im really really sad... :( im now really seeing lots of luggages and boxes outside my room. it frustrates me...

im getting my strength from my baby,especially when i really need it. her loud mataray but cute voice... her cute ala dora the explorer face...her pagkamatakaw... her katarayans...her funny face... i will miss my baby so much.. now where could i get that strength? haaaay... im so lonely. :(

i can still remember my goodbye kiss with matching tears pa to my baby sister when we were about to leave last summer. i really cried..imagine, i was crying the whole trip til we got to intl airport?heck.it was pretty long... she was still a baby back then... now's a different one. she's already this very cute kid who asks you different stuffs... who could crack a joke...who could really sing well! yeah! daig ako!... man... i will miss her kisses esp when she needs something... her kakulitan...haaaay..i wont be able to see her for more than a month? man!!!! how can i handle this?

6 more days... :'( btw,my other lil sis wont be going...i know that she'll also miss her favorite playmate... and ang pinakamamahal niya, mom ko! my gawd.. i dunno how to takecare of her, imagine...i have to hug her everynight, then she'll hug me din? ok that isnt a big deal... but here's the verrrrry big deal! nasasakal ako! she's so heavy!....

oh well... goodluck nalang to me. i'll make kwento nalang...

i love you my baby angel. your ate will miss you so much.

my baby.

2005-01-10T17:15:00.000+08:00

dude...im so bored. still have this terrible cough. im not doing anything at school either. it's sooo boring! we dont even have any homeworks. haaay... reklamador ko talaga. ohhh welll...

got nothin to say... i miss him.

im soooo sad.... really... my mom and my sister will be leaving very soon. yes... they will leave on jan 17.. 1 more week... :( i will miss my baby angel for sure. i wont be having a mom for a month... :( no mom and baby... feels like half of my life is missing.. im seein lots of boxes na where my baby's clothes are inside... they were packing the whole night last night.. awwww... i will miss my baby... :( she's my happiness...really. my baby always makes me laugh. :(bye bye ate...

sick...

2005-01-08T14:32:00.000+08:00

haaay..yes.im sick today. :( i have a verrrrry bad cough and colds... anyways, i didnt go anywhere today because my parents didnt allow me.. i may have pnuemonia daw. ok ok... but i will or i need to go to my friend's debut later..otey?

im hook with my computer the whole day... piggin out... blaaah... goodthing people are also bored,like me. Ü im still figurin out this photoshop..and look what i did!

isnt this cool? haha. im now a butterfly!!!! BUTTERFLY KYMIE whoohoo...been dreaming of being a butterfly.. haaay...illusyonada. :) it's just an experiment.. i could do better. i know i know... my wings are pretty small for me. hehe. :)

takecare people! ;D

An Addict

2005-01-06T17:19:00.000+08:00

haaay im falling in love with

***my cheap tennis racket and my quite expensive tennis bag...***
i never changed my racket.. i love it so much..:)

i feel lonely knowing that i will not be able to play this sport after this school year. i know that i will be busy... goodbyes are comin:

goodbye black kym
goodbye scratches
goodbye sun!
bye bye my shell court!
bye bye to the dirt/sand on my body
bye bye sweaty shirts...
bye bye to my very red face after a game
bye bye "love" score or 7-0
bye bye to my ka tennis players... man..
bye bye patay tennis balls
goodbye training!!!
bye bye my tennis...

haaaay... i will miss my sport. tennis! hope i could be a varsitarian again when im in college.. but my gawd, how can i handle it?haaay..bahala na.

say hello...to a new kym. :)

Finally...

2005-01-06T17:15:00.000+08:00

yes..finally.. i was able to install this adobe photoshop. asked everyone if they have an istaller..yahoo!thank you lolo cla!:) you're the best!

anyone who wants to have a copy? i could give you one... :)

clarence aka lolo...he's actually the best guy in our classroom..kind, smart,creative and very unique... ;p he's so nice.

lucky me...

2005-01-06T17:08:00.000+08:00

wow! it was my first time to win a raffle.. the NOCHE PA BUENA RAFFLE..

a mcdonald crew called me up asking if i ate at mcdo last december. i asked why and she said "mam kayo po kasi yung nanalo sa draw ng mcdo, punta nalang po kayo...blaaah" i dont know if i won the 1st or 2nd prize. i have to bring that letter that was sent to me "daw" from dti.. pero asan? the staff said that i should have it...eh asan nga? ah ewan. suki naman kami ng mcdo..hehe. :)

yup goodthing i didnt throw it somewhere.. and goodthing i saw it. hehe. :p lucky me...

INTRODUCING MY NEW FAVORITE!

2005-01-04T17:19:00.000+08:00

White Chocolate Reese's Peanut Butter Cups

One of the best White Chocolates ever! man... its freakin sad knowing that my new favorite chocolate reese's cups were gone! :( we ate it... nothin's left. haaaay buhay... my tita gave it to us. pictures nalang natira...

try it... Ü

a married life?

2005-01-03T19:10:00.000+08:00

our teacher in values asked us, "for catholics, ano gusto niyo? (blaaah..) single life,religious life or married life?" we put it on a paper... i hurriedly answered : a married life... it was like im so sure of it... here's my few reasons:

i want to have my own family someday
a different from mine.
i want to have beautiful and smart kids.. :p
i want to prove that i am different from them.
i want my children to be proud of me...
i want to have a happy life..well at least before i die.

ok... hmmm maybe 10 yrs from now?i have no idea..whatever. all i know is that i want to have a nice,descent,successful,COMPLETE and happy family.. i have it all except for that "COMPLETE" thingy which i really want to have someday..

but nowadays, uh almost 50% families are broken? they say that it is much better to have a live-in partner than a real husband... is it true? hmmmm... maybe, because if your relationship with your partner(married life) will not work,then you want to be divorced/annuled,you'll spend a lot... get a lawyer,kunsimisyon pa daw... on the other side, if youre not married, you can easily get another partner, no kunsimisyons, no money to be wasted... so true.

but.. how are you goin to deal with your kids? if you're divorced or if you're not married? they cant deal with it easily... well well well..based on my experience.. haha. :) they will be hurt, they wont show it to you(parents) but when you're not around, they will be disturbed and be depressed... ok maybe some of you may disagree.. kaya nga based on my experience e.

there is an answer...

answer: choose this "single life" .... or "religious life"

i know some of you still has a complete and happy family, hehe. lucky you. :) cherish everything. i dont know why im writing this thing... im not that disturbed with what's happening with my family right now... maybe i am but im not thinking of it...sucha waste of time. i have my own life to cherish...to love...

when i was still young, i used to go with my bestfriend izzay with her family to attend mass during sundays when my family cant attend. i can see that they are really complete, a happy one. i was so jealous which has been the reason why i dont wanna go with them anymore... i just cant express my jealousy-feeling before,thinking that it wasnt right. it wasnt right at all... that's their life... i have my own...

im not saying that im not proud to have a family like this..im proud of it ok? im proud of having a very beautiful and kind mom, a caring kuya, a very cute and sweet sisters and a loving lola... uh where are you dad? ok im proud to have him as my dad.. imagine, because of him... here i am...a beautiful creature evolved? yikes! hahaha. kiddin... maybe my parents are really not for each other.. they are not meant to last forever. teka..is there such thing as forever?

**a line from the song someday we'll know:

Oh, Someday we’ll know...If love can move a mountain...Someday we’ll know...Why the sky is blue... Someday we’ll knowWhy I wasn’t meant for you...

haaay buhay... basta mr.right will come.. haha. mr right daw.. ewan.

***im happy right now.... hehe***

2005-01-02T20:53:00.000+08:00

Haloscan commenting and trackback have been added to this blog.

thank yous..

2005-01-02T12:00:00.000+08:00

new year's resolution.....gone... ahahaha

i thought of making one.. actually i made one.. but as i post it, accck... my connection dropped. stig! seems like someone's tellin me not to have one.. haha.

ohhh well...

instead... i would like to say THANK YOU to:

God:

thank you so much for giving me these blessings...thank you for allowing me to live with beautiful people.

Family:

Mom-thank you for taking care of us without our dad.
mama-thanks for taking care of us also. lalo na sa pagttyaga.
my sibs(kuya,gel,kai)-for making me happy.. fighting with you guys makes me happy whahahaha.. i just love it. joke!
dad-thank you..though you always hurt us, intentionally or not, i love you so much. thank you for remembering us or not. thank you for loving us, kahit di namin feel. sorry if im not a good daughter.

BESTFRIENDS:

izzay-for being my bestfriend... walang iwanan!
ira-for always being there for me.
adi-primo!thanks for being my best boybud!thank you for always giving me a ride.for treating me.. for answering my stupid questions regarding boys..haha i love you friend!

NIEL:

Niel-thank you so much.. youre there when im sad. you always make me smile. thanks for makin me feel that i am loved. for being my inspiration..and for being the reason of my happiness.

LOVING GADGETS:

my loving mobile-haha.yes!thank you for being there for me!esp when it comes to Niel!
my pc-thanks for being there when im bored! haaay.. i love you!

RELATIVES:

ate nin-for being there pa rin..though we're not seeing each other na.miss you!
relatives-though we're not that close, i still love you guys. knowing that i have you makes me happy.

CLASSMATES AND FRIENDS:

classmates-thank you for the answers..kiddin! thank you for being there, esp my sisters and barkada, guys, you make me laugh!!!!:D
close friends-for being a source of my happiness.. when my heart wanna bursts you're there.
friends-for letting me know that i have you guys...
dennis,robert,jayar-for makin me feel that i am loved. sorry but im really fallin for him.thank you for the love and care.

other friends:

strangers-for makin me a better person.
enemies-(if i have..)for makin me realize that i am wrong..well sometimes.
our helpers at home-sa pagttyaga!bow!thank you so much..

BLOGISTAS:

ate russ-for texting me a very heart warming messages. thank you for letting me know that you're there. hope to see you soon..;) thanks for being an ate.
ate bianca-for being my idol. :) i idolize you so much.thank you for being so good to me ate.
ate cath-for being my chatmate!naks!love ko to! bait kasi.. :) thanks
ate kathy-for always checking my blog.. :) thank you.
cali-for allowing me to have a new friend :D
ate joei-for being so good to me.. :) thnx krispy kreme ko!
other blogistas-thank you for having a site like that. for posting.. it makes me feel good..your thoughts are sooo amazing..im always learning something new. :)

Pagsalubong sa Bagong Taon

2005-01-02T11:07:00.000+08:00

Pics were all taken at the rooftop of Asian something..
***sorry for the blurry pics,i used my mobile..didnt know that standard photo is better than night mode...***

(1)took a pic of myself 1 hr before

(2)Makati..

(3)while waiting for the countdown...

(4)this is it!!! 10...9...8...7...6...5...4...3...2...1...
HAPPY NEW YEAR!

(5) butterfly henna.. :P messin up with my skin?..:)

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

2005-01-02T10:00:00.000+08:00

hallooo everybody!! Ü

so how was new year? :)

i really really had fun... :D as ive said, we spent our New year countdown at makati, at 2 condos.. hmmm...we slept at amorsolo but we watched fireworks at asian something(my tito's condo) it's located in front of ayala(where was the countdown happened?)..sorry im not that familiar hehe.. Ü

alright! it was fun! it was my first time to see an eye leveled fireworks?? eh?? i took lots of pics.. we walked to death, watched bamboo and kitchie nadal for awhile (sila lang kilala ko..hehe), had a henna together with my mom, and ate a lot!! *burp*!

The sister of my grandma,tita beth together with his husband tito nani spent their new year here! yeah!they had fun...imagine,after 20 loooong yrs? :D

Whoa things i saw/did...blaaah lastnight:
(a)ate bianca g.! whooohooo..saw ate biancs. finally!:D
(b)bamboo singing masaya ah!
(c)i ate..i ate..i ate a lot...AGAIN!
(d)amazing fireworks in front of us!
(e)received $45..whehehe.
(f)deleted some old pics from my mobile just to take pics
(g)infareness...my dad called up.but he promised to call again yesterday..ok ok he
didnt!!!! asa pa.:D

AMAAAAAZZZZZZZZZZZIIIIIIIINNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGG....

we went to antipolo..toured the balikbayans...bought some foods..we ate at max's, my tito ordered this buko pandan shake, take note:he is from US, then guess what i saw on his drink? a strand of hair... yikes! kahiya.. ;/

ohhhh....well...

everyone...

2004-12-31T15:21:00.000+08:00

may you have a happy and posporous new year!

Our family will be spending new year at makati...so i wont be home for two days...

have a great day!!

mwah!

ate...

2004-12-31T15:00:00.000+08:00

Would you dare to call your girl/guy "ate/kuya"???????

Niel's calling me ate...

lastnight, he texted me to ask how i am doin with this kind of message : "goodevening po... Magtatanong lang po kung kamusta na po kayo.." he never texted me that way.. i mean a pure tagalog with po's??? i thought he was just tripping, but he wasnt. he's texting me with lots of po's until now... nasapian ata..

i asked, "uh bakit may po? baka you want to call me "ate"?"(it was just a joke ok???) then he said... "oo nga noh ate." blaaah blaaah....
what the?

til today he's still calling me "ate"...

why oh why?im still wonderin if he's just making lambing or what... i have no idea. i dont know if that ate thingy is sweet or... man.. nevermind..

whatatata boring vacation..

2004-12-31T02:43:00.000+08:00

haaay... im sooo bored.im not doin anything productive for the past days..just pigging out.. goddthing my mom bought me a punching bag..yes! i looove it.. that's what im doin.it eases my anger!!

yesterday,i ate..i ate.. and i ate! i just hate to be bored!i called up my superman cuz,and asked him to drive me at sm.i bought this minus one tape that i need for our lolo's party. i will be singing "nakapagtataka" by rachel alejandro. havent practiced yet. then we ate california maki at ichizen. ok that was our purpose...to eat. haaaay..

this morning,i tried to finish my research paper, less than 10 pcs of index to go! yahooo! I,my superman cuz and our two other girl friends are planning to go to atc. ok ok.. again i am their baby. they're all 18,,haaay.. but i really dont mind. i could relate naman with them...

Piktyur!

2004-12-29T17:14:00.000+08:00

where could this be?

Bahay Kubo sa:

(a)beach (b)mall (c)house (d)restau (e)room ko (f)car wash (g)school

the world hates me...

2004-12-29T12:55:00.000+08:00

im back..new blog..

yes.. now.. the world hates me.. :(

darn..

i feel bad.. i feel useless..

Been losing my loved ones...

(a)dad-- yes.. finally.. he's gone. yes? yes! i dunno.. he didnt greet us this christmas.. why? whatever.. how's that? ive been waiting for him.. til the 27th. he didnt.. he didnt.. he didnt... call! i could earn $5 in an hour for me to be able to buy phonecard.. shit! i sweaR! i'll work there... i'll be successful.. but i wont... i really wont ask for his money.. ok..not this time.. i need his "money"... just his money.. i dont need his "love".. he didnt give/show that to us since we were young! arrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggghhhhhhhh! you dont understand...

(b)izzay--my bestfriend.. i want her back.. :( she didnt leave me.. but since her bf came, haaay... cant find my bestfriend anymore.

(c)mom & angel-- yes.. they will be goin to US this jan. .how long? im not sure.. im not againsts it actually... my sister needs to know who our dad is. yes... she havent seen my dad.. but where is my dad? we have no idea... next year, i will be goin there... i need to... i have to fight for our rights! yes.. ill be a stronger KYM! i promise.

(d)ira-- my other bestfriend.. she's been there for me,since izzay left.. but she'll be leaving for US.. she'll be staying there. 2 more months... no more bestfriend..no more ira... no more cheese popcorn... no more make-ups...

damn it. i hate this..

******* i'll be stronger.******